i want to be more positive. start on the road to self-love. i'm making new rules in my life starting with : no more fasting, no liquid dieting -- all healthy. some of you may think it's counter productive ... but i want to appreciate the world around me when going through my change down to my goal weight and when i start to fast it's hate in my mind. i'm going to be super active and definately CUT DOWN a lot of what i eat and make sure it's healthy. no fast food, nothing fried, healthy substitutes. lots of fruit and protein to stay active but not thick. jog through my apartment complex everyday and use the health club at work after my shifts. no money to spend joining a gym that is a different trip that i'd get anxious about and end up not going.

not sure if self-love is ever possible but it's a dream. i can say it all i want but i still nitpick when i get ready in the morning. hate my hair, my eyebrows are uneven, zit on my face. my goal is to be able to face the dreaded mirror and STOP NITPICKING about myself. on my 43 things list i have a few things that i want to do that i think will help. have a list? let me know (: find me at http://www.43things.com/person/litebrite714  i also have a new years resolution list.

so recently i went from blonde to red , and today's thinspo is featuring suicide girls with red hair ^_^

today's thinspo : SUICIDE GIRLS Y

chloe (very close to my new color)

corban

dice

dixy

frost

izzy (*favorite)

lillith vain

silvia

tao (*favorite)

tell me -- who's your favorite? (: 

i feel so good. i took a nap, a bubble bath and finished the last chapter of my book, showered &shaved, and put on some warm vanilla sugar lotion from bath and body works. i am relaxed and feelin pretty damn sexy for my boy ( : i slept through 90210 but my friend said it was a repeat , but still in the spirit of a tuesday night, celeb thinspo tonight !

90210 thinspo:

starting off with my fav character, silver

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favorites anyone ?